so... chris kissed me last night. and it was... amazing! But I dunno wtf is going on. I am so confused. I really am.

This must be a bad joke... So reall bad fucking joke. I hope

<3 Sarah

Ok so here i am, frustrated, because its my day off tomorrow and katie expects me to clean "well i dont want to clean on my holiday" SO WTF MAKES U THINK I WANT TO CLEAN ON MINE?! HMM?! so i told her i would do everything but the dishes, which i think is veyr fair. And shes all like "Noo don't worry about it i'll take care of it." I want to fucking shake her.

She honestly said she would be gone no more than an hr and make dinner when she got back... she and anthony were gone 3 fucking hours and got back at 10, and o ya they stopped for dinner.

Fuck that.

I am so sick of her treating me like a child. Like I can't do anything for my self. Yet, her BF is ALWAYS over, and yet i say nothing, but when i think of even inviting someone over, well fuck that. "Well i dont want anyone here when I'm not home."

ITS MY FUCKING APARTMENT TOO BITCH! GOD

I quit

I'm moving.

Maybe into my own place, I don't know but i can't stay here, thats for damn sure. 10 months can't come fast enough.

here is what is so frustrating to me. Katie will do a load of her towels (with like one or 2 of mine thrown in) and then get mad when i want to do a load of laundry 2 days later but have to rewash the towels. THEN gets mad because my laundry isnt done because her fucking dryer sucks.

NOT ONLY THAT she had the entire weekend off. So don't fucking get mad at me because I worked all fucking day then came home and did laundry. Fuck you.

god.

then ari is coming out and shes like "well don't expect me to cook dinner for everyone."

Good bitch i didn't. go fuck your boyfriend or something.. she pisses me off. All high and fucking mighty. Fuck you you stupid mother fucker.

When the lease is up I'm gone.

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Sarah

I love having days off. Like today. I'm just chilling on my computer and now I'm going to clean my room. Katie and I cleaned the apartment last night and it tooks so good except it's already getting dirty again... which is driving me nuts so I'm gonna clean up the cans and the trash but her dishes and anthony's aren't my problem, they are hers. So....

I found out that my sister and my dad are coming out to texas in about a month for a texas PARTAY! meaning we are going to see the Red Sox play the Rangers in Dallas.

AHHHH SOOO EXCITING!

And Ari is coming out right before then... man its going to be a great weekend! CHI CHA!

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sarah

so after a stupidly long day (and me almost dumping a large dr. pepper on a stupid customer) all i wanted to do when i got home was relax.

But NOOOOOOOOOOooOOOooOOOOoooo.... i couldn't even do that!

Why?!

because Katie neglected to tell me her niece and nephew would be over for the evening so we had to babysit a 7 year old and a 1 year old.... ugh and they just left. Im so tired.

And i have to be up for work in 6 and a half hrs.

I'm out.

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Sarah

Man, so yet another relationship ends. And here's the kicker... Moe (the one who brought me to Texas) dumped me for his "best friend's" wife. wow. right? oh yeah and he cheated on me the entire time with helena... got her preggers twice. Man i'm an idiot. And now Jason and I aren't together anymore.

I think its because I work so much, and I really just don't have time to deal with his bullshit. "Oh I miss you, Sarah I love you".... BLAH BLAH BLAH gawd. I only have so much patience. Shit he's been here over a month and his sorry ass still doesn't have a job?! Sorry i work 40+ hrs at McDonald's and Part Time At Victoria's Secret....

On the sunny side, I'm going to a Rangers/Red Sox game, and representing my boys. I'm finally cleaning my room and I have a roomate I love and who likes to play matchmaker. I'm not ready to hop into another relationship.

I finally feel like I'm growing up.

Crazy huh? I thought when i ran away from home to AZ i had grown up, and then i realized I was just... running away from my problems. And Ari, if you ever read this. I really am sorry for all the bullshit I put you and Eytan Through. I was a fucking idiot. And I am sorry.

So now that i have a steady job (and a steady paycheck) I'm pretty damn happy. I can finally buy that nightstand and the bedding set I want.

I think thats enough for now.

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Sarah

Damn, thats all I can say. I got back from Texas, and I don't think I have ever been happier in my life. I can truly say now that I am blessed and have friends who love me and care about me. I'm counting down the days till i go home to texas.

19 days

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Sarah

Well needless to say its been a weird week for many reasons... but its 1:50 AM and I can't sleep... ARGH and i need to get up in 5 hrs to make sure i get everything done beofre i go....

I'M GOING TO TEXAS! WOOOOOOO

God I am so pumped. Something to look forward to, after the start of me week was so terrible. C'est La Vie!

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TK

And I guess i'm not just talking about sex. I guess subconsciously feel the need to complicate my life *sighs*

Today is my first day off in a week and I'm packing my bag for Texas and starting to pack boxes for my move.

God I'm so excited, and so freaking happy I'm moving. I'm really gonna miss some people here...

And as much as I hate to admit it, I do love my job, and I'm good at what I do. My store manager came over to Pink yesterday and told me shes had several people talk to her about how friendly and knowledgeable I am.

which is such a good thing because i'm transferring, and I got 4 credit cards last week and thats the most i've gotten in a week so I'm pretty pumped.

So packing for things, taking care of the puppy, and trying to figure out

This is... weird.

So many things have been going down as of recently.

1. The Biggest: I'm Moving To Texas at the end of April

2. I have a Puppy, I have had her for a while, and I love her.

3. I'm pretty much cutting off my family (at least my father and most of his side)

4. I'm really gonna miss a few people in Tucson: Ari, Eytan, Chelsea (just to name a few)

5. WoW has gotten really awkward... I dunno..

6. I'm going to Texas on Wednesday to see my Boyfriend and Look at apartments.

I guess thats really it, I can't think of anything else to right <3

I'm having a hell of a time right now. Between looking for a second job (still) and being sick and worrying about money and going to texas to see my boyfriend im a fucking mess.

Thank god for Ari and Eytan though. They have been so good to me but they need a break (thank god they are heading to san diego and i get to house sit with the cats!! YAY)

My dad is all lonely and concerned about me. I dont give a fuck anymore. I'm over dealing with my father. Anyway.. Im finally putting together my studio so yay for that... I'm gonna go crawl into bed and try to maybe get some sleep... since i havent really gotten any recently

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Sarah

I am packing up my 1 bedroom to downsize to a studio its kinda annoying but whatever... anyway

I AM LOOKING FOR MY BEST FRIEND IF YOU SEE HER TELL HER TO CALL ME!

<3 Sarah

so i've now been up for four hours and Im waiting for my dishes to air dry before i do the next set.... so once they dry i can finish off my dishes, rinse our the coke cans, take out the trash, and continue packing... blah

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Sarah

Ari when u see this CALL ME!

So lots of things going on. Between job interviews, filling out applications and ignoring my father my simple life or work, wow, and ari have gotten a little shook up. Not a lot. Just a little.

My dad is an asshole. No doubt in my mind.

He is an unbelieveable self-centered prick face and I hate him. And you should too.

I have to be at work in 8 hrs <3

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Sarah

So I have a date around 2pm and I am wicked nervous, wish me luck! I'm going bowling and to dinner, I'm just wicked excited. So yeah. I dyed my hair... I kinda hate it, but Maybe I just need to get used to it lol.

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Sarah

Have you ever had one of those days where the shit keeps piling up?

yeah that was me yesterday. I'm a wreck now. I dont know when i'll be on again. Things on all fronts are looking grim. I'm going to attempt sleep... wish me luck.

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Sarah

Happy new Year.

I got to work today... yay!!1 but i think i sprained my finger.... it hurts a fucking lot.

I kinda wanted to hang out with ari and eytan and everyone tonight since they are leaving tomorrow so i could say goodbyw... but whatever I'll just play wow....

Ugh

My hand hurts a lot i dont know if i can really play

fuck my life

<3 Sarah

lol drunk, but not asleep and now ive sobered right on up tyvm.

I made even more friends in the guild <3

And reunited with old ones.

Now I'm gonna attempt sleep.. wish me luck!

<3 Sarah

So I couldn't sleep last night so ended up staying up till freaking 6:15 AM... WHO DOES THAT?!

and I woke up at 10:30 so I've been procrastinating for the past hour, and its awesome!

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Sarah

well I got out of work at 1am fucking beautiful

I was supposed to work 3-11... so 3-1... not so bad..


I also found out that i will still have a job after SAS (semi annual sale) thank god! I was freaking out earlier today about it, but now I'm not so worried.

I'm in the process of cleaning my apt. tomorrow when i get up im gonna take out the trash and do some more laundry

Blah

I miss Ari and Eytan I havent seen them in almost 2 days ( AHHH PERISH THE THOUGHT)

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Sarah